February 2010
im so sorry.
you have no idea.
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You seem like the nicest guy, really genuine
thank you, i try really hard
Ask me anything
fuck you
im so sick of all your bullshit
do act like you even care about me, you had that chance, and fucked it up a billion times over
and now you want it back? you want another chance? thats not how it works.
im so done with you
and at the same time even if i tell you to leave, youre not going to. youll just be standing there waiting for me to get over it, and then youll always just be waiting for...
I hate to think about the fact that i probably have schizophrenia, but more and more i just become more afraid of the things tha
omegle never fails to provide hours of dangerous...
went to alaynas
went home
heart started freaking the fuck out i think my heart is just going insane
almost took myself to the hospital
talking to my baby on skype
did no homework
buying a drug test tomorrow to piss in it and show my parents so they can quit freaking out at me, because aparently im still using after i said i quit 1238901727 years ago.
till later
stay fresh
hit em’ up
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natalieb00tlah asked: I love you<3
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Anonymous asked: hey?
on skype for a bit
but getting off soon.
http://formspring.me/ricerocketpants if you want to
goodnight.
On the way down, we understand what it means to break down. On the way out you decide you believe that on the way out its too late.
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ricerocketpants…
explain
long story, but it was from back in the day when i played like counterstrike and halflife on steam, and there was this game full of asians and me and my bro didnt like them, so he dared me to change my name. the rest is history.
Ask me anything
Ask me anything...
up to you i guess.
i had a good night:)
but today in general was just okay, besides that, i just like didnt move from upstairs, and my parents wouldnt let anyone come over. im sorry chris:/
anyways.
im still kinda sick.
but getting better i hope, maybe?
anyways, on skype? ricerocketpants
and ill get off soon
nyquil. sleep.
Tired, im going to sleep i guess. Should be a sad weekend.
“I still get nightmares. In fact I get them so often I should be used to them by...”
– Mark Z. Danielewski, House of Leaves (via first-lines)
wish you were here.
i love you.
I got my secret weapon against my loneliness.
dayniecakes:
Did I even spell loneliness right? Whatever.
I got an international phone. So now it’s time for me to dance and circles and call somebody. But I don’t have any numbers for the first part, and I don’t know who’s interested in a call from me anyway.
:\
me.
Lifetime tomorrow. Hopefully. Then starbucks. Hopefully.
bailey is coming over.
thats really just different for me.
i havent seen her since she started that shit again. well, i kinda did, she jumped on me.
my parents arent home though, so ill kick her out if she tries anything
ramble.
im going to the cardiologist soon, if not, then idk.
im doing fine, i guess im depressed, but fuck, i have severe clinical depression, i just take my get-over-it pill and i deal.
put my happy face on
make a few laughs
maybe a smile
the world will be alright.
the world seems to get more strange tumblr, no matter how much better i become, the world around me continues to deteriorate.
im so...
Im in love with natalie
tired. probably going to sleep.
maybe natalies later?
i hope:(
so far: sad day.
To who it may concern: all pisd schools are canceled for friday as of now. My mom works for the district. Enjoy your friday.
amazing day.
i needed to post because i havent in a while.
im starting to work out at 6.
but it seems like im getting more weak, but idk.
im really tired, i work out at 6 every morning.
and then dance with kate on fridays at 8 and blahhh, idk
ive been thinking alot about my past more.
about all the times ive had
from alcohol, to weed, and components of meth, i pretty much just did whatever...
Ive never liked summer. But when it is summer, ive never like the winter. I think though, that summer is the time where im the c
“yeah i got some last words, fuck all of yall, stop writing raps and go play...”
Raw rock kills
Dancing like a whore = fun.
alaynabrianne:
okayfinethen2:
alaynabrianne:
okayfinethen2:
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thats all you know how to do!
I’m sorry and who’s the one who sells their body to Japenese men? Yeah, you’re soo much better!
im so confused. you do both of those things… i do none. i am loyal and have morals.
lollzzz
Judgemental much? Ouchhh.
im sorrry:(
i like to use it against you.
kinda like...
“Time is an absurdity. An abstraction. The only thing that matters is this...”
– “Memento Mori” - Johnathan Nolan
Dancing like a whore = fun.
alaynabrianne:
okayfinethen2:
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thats all you know how to do!
I’m sorry and who’s the one who sells their body to Japenese men? Yeah, you’re soo much better!
im so confused. you do both of those things… i do none. i am loyal and have morals.
lollzzz
Dancing like a whore = fun.
(via alaynabrianne)
thats all you know how to do!
this isnt for you.
“A roaring flow abounds a warmth and joy that holds you
open and apart in steps...”
– portugal. the man
(La nuit du chasseur)
I was born of the womb of a poisonous spell Beaten and broken and chased from the lair But I rise up above it, high up above it and see I was hung from the tree made of tongues of the weak The branches were bones of liars and thieves Rise up above it, high up above and see Pray to your god, open your heart Whatever you do, don’t be afraid of the dark Cover your eyes, the devil inside One...
“He who dies with the most toys is just as dead.”
– Shaheen. might have been the best quote ive ever heard
do i have Residual Schizophrenia?
along with severe clinical depression?
i havent thought about it in a long time, but after today, after the hallucinations came again, its freaking me out
:/
i dont know.
my memory is leaving me
and sometimes i feel like im not even here.
maybe my headaches and my body aches and everything is all linked to that.
maybe they dont exist at all.
i wont get...
chris: all those meds are primarily for the epileptic and for Schizophrenic
dont fuck with them
auditory hallucinations are scary:/
Recently
im doing pretty good these days.
i guess i feel like im slowly becoming the person i want to be
in the end though, something has to go horribly wrong.
and its like, ive just been waiting for it, and waiting for it, but it doesnt come.
so maybe i got it right this time
maybe i am where i should be
anyways
did an experiment yesterday
health related/social
i get headaches and lose memory all...
