May 2010
“Underneath the surface
none of us deserve this
Underneath the surface we break...”
if i go through with this i dont know what will happen
incase i dont get to say goodbye to anyone on here, goodbye
i still love all of you
im so sorry
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im not happy really
i just am tired of things
and tired of not knowing what to do
Everything starts where it ends.: Really, really... →
Before you say anything, hear me out. Yes, EVERYONE’S going to Plano. I realize that. And that is exactly the reason I don’t want to be there. Most of the friends I’ve made in drill team are either going to West, or are going to be on Planoettes, meaning I won’t even see them anymore anyways….
branching out doesnt make you independent.
there will be almost the exact same amount of...
whatever
night was fine, ill get over it.
nothing is even wrong, im just not really in a good mood.
head hurts really bad, i took Excedrin but i dont think its going to help, itll probably turn into a migraine
heart hurts too, but i dont really care i dont know if the fact that i dont care anymore makes me suicidal or not
have a goodnight everyone
I was rejected
katiefuossy:
from giving blood today because of my melanoma.
i hate it.
i cried in the bathroom; just a little though.
I really wanted to donate.
thats really sad mate:(
I dont know what to do. Please, i just want to do whats best. I dont know what that is anymore:(
1:30
i think im going to start house of leaves again
i’ve always loved that shit
and i’ve somewhat wanted to read it again
hopefully i wont go insane though, i haven’t really slept in a while and sometimes i wonder what my mental state is
at this stage i feel nothing, and everything seems to just fade away.
auditory hallucinations? you betcha.
maybe i should get...
“Don’t stop talking to me, i haven’t been listening.”
– Circa Survive
current
Addictions:
Natalie
Insomnia
Narcolepsy
Circa Survive
The mercury Program
Kings of Leon
Viva pinata
tumblr.
Cravings:
djarum’s
151 and dr.pepper
Dr.b
2c-i
2c-e
Dexmethylphenidate
razor blades
all of my knives
summer
-ly looking forward to:
Angels and Airwaves
DMA
Summer
Seeing you again
“I”ll become like the desert wind and I’ll drink all the gin Shriveled up under desert lights eaten up in the night I can’t keep this up much longer without needing more from you I need more”
dear acute insomnia
you sometimes make things more interesting and fun
tonight= prime example
however it is necessary to say that i dont always like you very much:/
im sorry, i just feel as though you sometimes just make things alittle harder for me
but tonight ill accept it, i need you to finish my whap essay, or work on it, at least. and i made a new friend and talked to many other people from across the...
hello jackie from new jersey,
lets be fweeends:)
im not even a bit tired.
i wish you were here:/
ill be up tonight
im not at all tired
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some days
i want to tell him that im not okay
that every Tuesday i lie straight to his face just to give him what he wants to hear
youre not helping me
i wish you were i wish it was working, but the meds and Natalie help, thats about it.
all you do is try and think of questions for me to answer, and one day i wish i had the courage to tell you that i used to think about death alot
that i tried to kill...
high school drama these days
shut the fuck up.
to every bitch dumb enough to do stupid things and have their mistakes shoved in their face
you deserve it, every second of it
learn from it, and get over it or dont and just stop fucking things up for other people besides yourself
ill say whatever the fuck i want.
dont tell me im in the wrong, dont even try.
if you have a problem with me kindly say it to my face, im a...
people who are mean to my girlfriend =/= people that i like very much
just.
blah.
i am also sick of people.
the problem is i have no one
besides you im just alone.
that hurts to remind myself
and that thought that comes up into my head just doesnt seem good whatsoever
ill be fine though, i wish things were better:/
nochenada-deactivated20111113 asked: SEAN I LOVE YOU!
this weekend
was perfect
exactally what i needed in every way.
tell you about it soon?
sorry i hevent really been on in a while, recently, ive just been blank
but whatever, off to sleep
goodnight
i love you so much, just btw:DD
i used to love this
“I’m watching this screen These lies played out before my eyes And how they know everything Everything comes easy Well I never had it easy I was never lucky It was never easy And you sit there And you judge my commitment You people could say that I’m the bad guy Because I was weak I was weak once or twice Well let me tell you I’m standing in the lead I am standing in the...
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am i wrong to say nothing?
to say nothing at all?
or to feel nothing?
even if it were only for a second?
should be an uneventful weekend, whatever, nbd. off to do homework.
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Is it alright if I follow you back?
Is it alright if I follow you back?
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If you could have a super power, what would it be?
idk.
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man: sean! have a beer and a cigar, sit down, get in here
Me: So im just going to go this way now...
lets see how this goes? :)
last night was great
i suprised her with a little gift i picked up, since i figured it was exactally what she wanted, and then we watched cashback, an indie film that was remarkably goood.
i like watching indie films with you:)
atleast i have another person that enjoys them<3
breakfast date thing now
excited= yes:)
maybe this will be a good weekened after all:D
a mind surrounded by paper walls: 86.1 Miles →
DAY ONE DONE. I rode my bike through Frisco up to Prosper, over and through Denton, down through Ponder, and finished for the day at the Texas Moter Speedway. And all I suffered was a bloody knee and elbow. :D Now I’ll sleep and wake up at five to finish the 74.3 miles I have left for…
actually youd be burning about 5000 Kcal a day, not to mention losing atleast 3-4 pounds in water...
7/21 im so tired. Just so tired. I think ill just be alone today.
