August 2010
when my focalin wears off and i feel withdraw-ly i...
when i burn
and when i’m gone
and i’m running into the darkness
you will never find me
only when the light strikes the sun will you see me over the horizon
focus your eyes towards the light
breath in the summer air
thats where you’ll find me.
the typical thoughts in my mind.
there is no grand ultimatum to be found in the series of life
no point in time in which you can really stop and say you understand everything up until that point and that all the events in your life have now come into focus.
most people will die without ever having a full closure, or even without the love of the world in their heart.
however, the impact of a death of an individual affects...
“And I heard an unending scream piercing nature”
– from the diaries of Edvard Munch, 1892
i havent posted in a while
things can be so complicated sometimes i just dont feel like posting
and sometimes im just having a really good day and crash before i could get on my computer
regardless, its been a great first week, im exhausted though
and i love you. so much.
“very carefully, look over your shoulder”
sometimes
even our wildest imagination could not comprehend the events that are to come
or what will happen tomarrow
or the next day
or even one hour
or one second from right now
by the time you get down to this part of this page, you you could have already been dead
someone close to you could have died
someone you don’t even know
or maybe just someone you haven’t met yet
every tick...
eh, im crashing probably soonish
tired as hell
0-1 clinical rotations
2 ap english 3
3 spanish 4(why would i take that? i dont even understand my own motives)
4 physics
5 us history
6 Alg 2
i think something in there is wrong, and i dont have the legit thing in front of me, so i have no clue
but whatever
goodnight, see everyone soon hopefully
in my boredom and curiosity of the matter, ive decided to try again at achieving psychic or paranormal occurances
mostly because the cia did tons of work on it during the cold war, and last night i achieved something that i myself can not fully comprehend, nonetheless, it would be interesting to decide for myself whether i believe any of it, so i plan on trying it once more
ESP being the main...
i love you.
so much
i usually pick up books that are dark, or have extreme depth, or complexity.
but i was at legacy books, and i decided that i wanted to buy a book, just so i could remember that i loved that place and that i did try my best to help it.
so i grab a book
and its called “half of the world in light” by Juan Felipe Herrera(yeah thats not properly mla cited, bite me.)
didnt even look...
i should probably do the AP reading, but at this point im usually just reading medical textbooks, some spy novel, or random books i happen to find unread, or ones ive liked before.
and i should probably be sleeping as well, but im awake.
and so i guess ill just figure out what to do
…maybe ill read.
“In the desert
I saw a creature, naked, bestial,
Who, squatting upon the...”
– Stephen Crane
“In a picture perfect scenery I’ve become a stick figure illustration”
– still, and will remain one of my favorite songs
i finally have a clue where i'm headed
for once things are somewhat making sense again
