do you ever just close your eyes expecting yourself to just wake up on the other end
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September 2010
instead of dejecting religion altogether, why not realize what they all have in common and leave yourself open minded?
Almost every religion teaches to strive to better yourself, persuit your goals, and to not give up
It’s also generally spoken that its important to help others when they are in need, and that the sum of how well you lived your life will depend on the people you’ve affected
Also, it teaches to not follow a mortal or object as an example of how to live your life, but rather to find your own way of thinking and making things work
whether you believe in a higher power or not is really not even relevant
but if you chose to believe in nothing, not even yourself
and you turn to hatred torwards the beliefs of others
you are already dead.
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you’re never going to get what you want
and you will never have it easy
if you do, you’re already dead.
“I think you’re the fucking anti-christ”
—Donnie Darko
i don’t want to be a scapegoat anymore
i’m not your problem
you’re your own problem
i am flawed
Move one inch at a time...: I love it when I express what my outlook on things are, →
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dear alayna
im sorry.
that post had nothing to do with you, nor was i evening thinking about you when i wrote it
but i’m sure somehow i did something wrong and therefore its my fault
so sorry.
but calling me judgmental?
im sorry, you’re judging me based on false…
okay sean. gladly. i’m way over these fights over tumblr anyways. and i know you’ll say “well you started it”. but honestly, i try to be nice, and i don’t “talk shit” behind your back. actually, funny thing is, i know you’ve done that to me. so i’ll “stay the fuck out of your way”. i found that post strikingly familiar to what i’d posted not long before. but if it had nothing to do with me, fine! honestly, i do think you’re judgemental based on the things you’ve said about me. and i’m fine with telling you that. so whatever. you too dude.
im actually not saying you started it. i see you try to be nice, but when you do this its hard to see the niceness at being insulted via third person
im not trying to offend you
and im being 110% serious when i say it has nothing to do with you or with whatever you posted and im sorry that you thought it did
and you can still call me whatever or tell me whatever you want
you dislike me, and i obviously cant change that, so i’m sorry for that to
and im sorry if you found anything i said to be judgmental towards anything that you’ve done or choices that you’ve made with your life, honestly i barely know you and its none of my business anyways
if you dislike me, thats okay, but i was seriously just posting something that wasn’t about you, nor could it have been, i’m just sick of fighting with you when were hardly even friends anyways, and i guess you and natalie aren’t best friends either if i’m that was the intention of your original post.
so seriously, let just stop?
im sorry, really.
i don’t want to start shit with you
id like to be friends
but id also like to be the kind of friends who don’t attack each other right?
idk what you want, or what you even think of me, but atleast for everyones sake, just accept my apology and please believe me when i say it wasn’t pertaining to you or anything you said. i don’t even care about what you said about me, i’m past that, im not saying you started anything and im not posting this to provoke another hate message, or more drama between us
i’m posting this because we have to coexist. because you have your life, and i have mine, and though you think i judge you based on what you’ve done, but i really just don’t have any reason to do that. i really have no problems with you. i don’t dislike you in any way. while i may overstep my place when shit happens sometimes, i apologize, i fuck up too. when things affect her massively, it affects me as well, and more times than not i go to far into your business because it does do that, and for that i’m sorry too, you don’t deserve that of me, its really just how i am
and if you don’t believe any of the shit that i’m saying and you don’t like me, and you still think that was about you and that i’m singling you out, then i’m sorry for the miscommunication, and lets just calm down regardless because there really is no point
-sean
I love it when I express what my outlook on things are,
and you instantly have to shut me down. Stop trying to make me out to look stupid. You’re really no better than anyone else.
God, I really dislike judgmental people.
dear alayna
im sorry.
that post had nothing to do with you, nor was i evening thinking about you when i wrote it
but i’m sure somehow i did something wrong and therefore its my fault
so sorry.
but calling me judgmental?
im sorry, you’re judging me based on false pretenses and are insulted because you apparently find yourself included in something i wrote?
don’t lecture me about how im no better than anyone else
im a person
ill say whatever the fuck i want, and im not going to censor it because you somehow think its always directed torwards you
and im not going to take this shit from you about how im always in the wrong and how its my fault for saying shit instead of a tad bit yours for always making it about you
say whatever the fuck you want about me
i really dont care
talk shit behind my back
cut me down
spit in my face
but stay the hell out of my way
i dont judge you
the only one who is judging anyone is you
of corse this is going to start some big thing right?
that will be all my fault.
my bad.
have a great weekend
-sean
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i think people get really confused with how to live their life
if you want to get out and experience things and take chance at every possibility, then thats a good way of living
thats kinda like a 90’s mentality which i tend to like
now what happens:
people push away everyone who cares about them to try and take a chance at every possibility because they think its boring and bad not to
they continue untill they make a hole they cant get out of
they think that at some point it all stops and your life turns back into what it should be
they wind up dead, in jail, in mental institutions, and alone for the rest of their lives
experience life. embrace it, thats what you should be doing
but know just how far you can go before everything you cared about is completely gone
unless you want to be alone with only a bunch of memories of how you ruined years of your life because you were to ignorant to understand what you were getting into
you can say im lying
say i dont know what the hell im talking about and that living your life that way is just right
everyone has their own opinions i guess.
when you leave, ill turn my head, and i wont look back. i’ve had too much pain to watch more brilliant and talented people throw their life away.
such a fucking waste
there are some people that i miss
a lot of them made me who i am
but a lot of them will never change
and i’ve just drifted into the dark crevices of society
